A Good Read

I just finished reading the manga, After School Nightmare by Mizushiro Setona.

I am a slow reader, read it for like 3-4hrs. It was a good read. Definitely. At first I was thinking, well this is just another manga to pass time by. But as I went on deeper into the story, it made me eat my words.

It's not like the typical love story plot that you normally have in shoujo mangas. The way the mangaka had established every detail in the story as each chapter progresses made sense by the very powerful ending. Truly remarkable, I can say that this manga was well thought of, and it offered a different perspective of what being alive is supposed to be like.

Congratulations to the mangaka to have conceived a very wonderful job in completing this manga!


A must read.

Disclaimer: Image solely belongs to the mangaka.

weekend na naman

Kamukha talaga nyan yung ex ko dati na hindi ko pa nakikita ulit. ahahaha. ambisyosa.

ang bilis talaga ng mga araw, wala naman kaming magawa. Tumataba na naman ako dahil sa tumigil kami sa pag-eexercise ng kapatid ko. Medyo nanghihina pa din ako, at mahilo-hilo, pero buhay pa naman ako. Kainis nga eh. Dapat talaga mag-exercise ng mabuti. Goal ko pa naman na gumanda ng bonggang bongga. bwahahaha... Seriously, mahirap ang masyadong malaki. Yung mga damit na maliliit na alam mong bagay dapat sa'yo ay hindi mo na maisusuot. Personal lang naman ang goal na ito, at hindi ko ito ginagawa para sa ikabubuti ng lahat (what the?) di kaya, para sa isang tao.

Totoo na nung mga nakaraang panahon na nag-eexercise kami ng kapatid ko ay medyo gumaganda ang pakiramdam ko, nagiging active na nga ako nun eh. Pahamak na dalaw yan, wrong timing. Hindi pa talaga matapos-tapos hanggang ngayon yung monthly dalaw na yan. mahigit 1 linggo na yan. Sumakit kasi talaga katawan ko nung ginagawa namin yung exercise at naghinala ako na baka nasobrahan ako, yun pala ay dalaw lang. Pahamak talaga. Nawa ay matapos na ang paghihirap kong ito. Seryosong mag-uumpisa na akong mag-diyeta at mag-exercise. Iniisip ko na hindi maganda ang magiging hitsura ko pag ako'y lumobo pa. Gusto kong pumayat tulad nitong taong ito:


yung babae ha, kahit konti lang.

Bukod sa pag-eexercise ng pisikal na pangangatawan, dapat ko na ding simulan ang pag-aaral ng kultura at salita ng mga tao dito. Kung gugustuhin ko nga namang makabili ng mga gamit dito, dapat lang na magka-trabaho. Kailangan ding mag-aral muna siyempre ng mga nakagawian nila para makahanap ng magandang trabaho. Kailangan talaga ng pasensya. Pero wala naman akong mabilhan nun dito, at mas gugustuhin ko ding iwasan yung pasensya kasi hindi ba matamis na naman iyon? Ahahay... ang buhay nga naman parang life.

Wala lang talaga akong makausap ng matino dito sa ngayon. *bow*

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Shrimp is Allergy Festival

You know yesterday was one of those days that you'd like to have a bowl of warm soup or broth to savor while sitting back and relaxing as the day slowly ends. It was a perfect cold and rainy day with an unfortunate ending. As usual, I was in the kitchen cooking food before the folks came in. I was cooking chicken lo mein, or something like that, when our aunt called us up and told us that we'll be having some soup courtesy of her and her husband who had a double order of that food. It was okay, thought it would compliment the food that I just completed. Soon they were home, my sister re-heated the soup that they brought which contained shrimp yes, shrimp. I took the chance of sipping some of the soup that they brought home, well out of hunger I suppose. No, hunger is too big of a word, but I'd rather call it as something that would please them, as a sign of appreciation.

After dinner was over, we had our usual family talk thing going on. I felt like my lips kinda itched a little bit, but I just took it for granted. Then, I was cracking some jokes on my sister when I suddenly felt a sting come on my right chest. It was from then that I became quiet. My sister thought that I was still playing with her, teased me. Then I started to wheeze out a little bit, and felt like I had a difficulty breathing. I took some tylenol to prevent the pain, but I couldn't take it any more, I told my aunt that I think I'm having allergic reactions to the shrimp in the broth. My aunt called the medical group that's closest to our place and asked for some instructions. They asked her to give me some antihistamine, but my uncle decided that it was better to take me to the emergency room since that's what they told them to after taking the antihistamine thing. So without any antihistamine thing, I felt a lot worse as we drove for 30-minutes to the hospital.

At Kaiser Permanente, the hospital, the nurse told me that my breathing was normal, and that it might have primarily come from me being nervous and all so I had to calm down a bit. Later on, I was in one of the emergency room's beds when a nurse asked me what I was feeling and then she came back with a few options for us. First was that benadryl thing, then for a little while later, if I feel a lot better after taking that then I wouldn't be given any other medicine. True enough, I was receiving something that was in vapor form. They told me that this medicine was to open my lungs to promote a normal breathing, which could make me feel a bit sleepy, which I wasn't. But it lasted for an HOUR. Even before that vapor was consumed, the doctor. Dr. Smith, decided to give me the tablets necessary for me to feel better. One was for the stomach cramps, another for the easier absorption of 3 prednisone tablets. My gulay, I felt quite better after the session was over and requested to be sent home. I can't stand hospitals that much. It's too clean. lol. joke. I am not fond of the smell of medicine that's why I try as much as possible to avoid getting sick. I also got an epipen, i don't know what that is, but its a syringe that I need to use in case of a sever allergy attack. My sister is really happy about that, coz I asked her to be the one to do it in case I get my allergies. Time for her revenge, haha.

Going home, I was stressing over the ice cream that my sisters had started to eat when we left and, as my aunt commented, was a sign that I was okay. But during the entire day, I felt very weak and a bit dizzy from time to time, must have been the side effects of some of those medicines. Hopefully I won't get any more allergy attacks, best to avoid the seafood because I still don't know whether if I get this allergy by ingestion or by just being exposed to it. Too bad, I won't be able to lend a helping hand in one of the upcoming Crab Feed events held at the local church. But, it may be a blessing in disguise as it happened even before I offered to help on that seafood festival. ♥


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I Can't Breathe...

Yes, I can't breathe, but the reason is not the same like what GD's song is about. Sa dinami-dami ng mga maaaring mangyari sa akin, ay yun pa ang naganap.



Napatunayan ko nang madali talaga akong makawala ng mga gamit. Kung puso ko man yun o mata ko man yun malamang sa malamang ay hindi na ako mabubuhay (uuuy, kala nya magmahal) o makakakita. I checked my passport holder for some important documents needed for school and lo! It wasn't there! I couldn't sleep last night, stressing over where I could've placed it, dropped it, you name it! I was thinking of it all night long. Kinakausap ko yung sarili ko kung sasabihin ko ba kay tita o hindi, tinanong ko pa yung kapatid ko, na nainis kasi paulit-ulit akong nagtatanong sa kanya about what decision ang dapat kong gawin. Yung mga suggestions nya na madalas kong kinokontra hanggang sa nainis na nga siya sa akin. Sa awa naman ng Diyos ay nakatulog din ako, pero pagkagising ko sinabi ko din sa tita ko na nawawala nga yung dokumento na yun. Hala sige hanap naman kami. Nag-aalala siya kasi baka hindi ko pa maramdaman ang epekto nun ngayon, pero malamang sa future na hinaharap pa. Madali lang naman makakuha nun pero the problem is, we have to verify the location of that document for it is my identity. Grabe, namumutla na talaga ako sa hiya at abala na aking ginawa, kabago-bago ko pa man lang din dito. May sinabi yung kapatid ko na baka nalabhan daw niya yun nung isang linggo kasi may mga traces ng papel na nakita, Option 1 yun. The next option ay kung nasa library yun, kasi nung nag-apply kami ng library card, ipinakita ko yung proof of address ko sa kanila na kasama yung passport ko na, sa palagay ko ay, nakaipit dun. Tumawag naman si tita, ayun, wala dun.



In short, ipapanalangin ko na lang na sana ay nalabhan na lang yun 'di kaya ay hindi gamitin yun sa masamang paraan. Pero dagdag na trabaho na naman para kanila tita, kasi dadalhin na naman nila ako sa area na nag-iissue nun. I think I must do better, if not much better, when I am applying for a job or school para ma-overlook nila yun. It might work, but still I have to prove to them na I can do it. My tita told me that I was really like her in a lot of ways, which is again, confirmed in this incident.

What a Wonderful Wednesday

The sun is up and shinning, good thing the rain didn't last until morning. Evidences of the heavy downpour is still in sight. Nevertheless, its another beautiful day. Beautiful because we have the house to ourselves! Yehey! Our aunt couldn't take us to the school today, maybe she'll try to escape work again tomorrow just to get us all "analyzed" or "guided" by the school councilors, which are too busy if you ask me for they are not returning my aunt's calls. This must be a sign that we shouldn't be in school just yet. Our aunt also told us that she had inquired about the fees, it is indeed true that we were to pay at least, double the amount for tuition. Well, that's that. The facts kinda make me think that going to a school councilor isn't a best bet. That's why I sent mine and dad's resume to her, so she can "check" whatever stuff that's supposed to be there or not.

Yeah, we broke it slightly with our aunt last night. My sister and I kept on telling her that we're not that ready for school. Readiness, determined financially. She asked us what we want to do for the time being, I told her we should look for a job. Imagine the look she had, we know she wants my sister to be in school, but the timing isn't good. Patience is a virtue, and I believe that it is more so in our case. I mean, school is just there, we aren't even settled enough to support ourselves. I don't mean to cast a negative impression on our aunt's wanting to get us to school. But, as I constantly repeat to myself, we are just NEW here. Being NEW has less benefits compared to being at least a year of staying here. I know she's aware of that, since she's been here. She just wants everything to be laid in place. Preparing beforehand, like if we're admitted to that school, such and such things will apply, this and that subject will be credited,etc. Little things that can be done, should be done, if you are able. Staying fixated on one area of interest isn't good as you can never see the big picture unless somebody pops right in and tells you all sort of stuff.

I know that whatever decision we make, whether its to work or to study, we should take it without any doubts or just for the sake of "doing it". Easier said than done, I'll just let the waves of life carry me.

Got to stop worrying about my brothers. I hope they're doing fine in school. ^_^

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School, Exercise, Starlight & Sweetheart& Anime!! :D

mood: tired but feeling satisfied

Yes!!! It's day 5 of our exercising program!!! wooot~ Good job Joni! I really feel like I'm getting a bit more active. Now, I know that exercising is not good for me at night time. I went to bed at 10pm, and I slept at 2am. wahahaha. I was just lying on my bed, doing nothing, I tried to read a book, but it didn't do well. Heck, if I was reading a thick one, I would've finished it 'til morning! Hahaha. I woke up late.

My brothers had their first day in school today. I am so happy and proud of them! They are in the 10th grade, and they are taking some music classes. I hope that they do well in Pinole, meet new friends and survive this new school environment. I can't wait until we get admitted to school, which we'll be able to find out on wednesday, hopefully.

My uncle told us about getting to school before having a job. My dad told us that we should pool our resources together so we can be independent. So, I'm having a difficult time what to follow or do. But I'm closing in on a decision that is probably more beneficial for our family since we have just arrived. I don't know but, I think since we're new to this country, we'll have to pay 2x the amount for college fees. That is because of the fact that we haven't even been here for around 6mos.-1year. I think my aunt and uncle might have miscalculated that little detail. I mean, how can they support all three of us girls? It's not clear to me. Nor are they telling us what and who to let attend school. Not a word. Oh well, this is what I am getting, LACK OF COMMUNICATION PEOPLE.

All of them here are about time and time alone, they are missing the fact that a simple sentence can make a difference. It don't take that much of the time, it even improves it. Jobs are done faster, things are achieved more efficiently. So, that's what I'm thinking while I digested starlight and sweetheart chocolates. I miss my calories.


Yess!! I am editing this blog for some last minute messages

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Free Day! Exercise?

Yes, it's a Free day for me! I'm enjoying the free videos that are on tv today. although some of the videos leave me hanging by the end of the show (coz its free, there are only a few episodes to watch), it still is a good way to waste time.

Speaking of time, my sister and I started this exercise program yesterday. Waking up with a rounder face got me to start monitoring my food and figure. I'm not gonna compare my weight before I got here to now, the pictures taken during the holidays say it all (thank you ate chi for pointing that out). So after two days of exercising, all I can say is... MY BODY HURTS! It's pretty difficult to sweat over here, so even if we go for a walk outside, we couldn't feel any sweat. But we do feel tired. The program is a 90-day workout. My GULAY! 88 days to go! Better if we have fun during the process. I mean, REAL FUN. I personally like it that its a program fit to use at home, that way we can avoid people. LOL. Actually, I feel a little less tired than yesterday. Slept in until 10am (set the alarm at 7:30, which I turned off when it rang. lol) So we had to do the exercise at 12. I must admit that yesterday, after having the session I missed my calories a lot that I ate almost everything that I burned out. Hahaha.

I did some research with the hair color thing, and I've come across this product called Palty. I love their shades and can't wait to try it. Unfortunately, I still don't have any means to finance this change. That's why I decided to wait until I have saved some, which is hopefully after the 90-day period of the exercise program. I'm quite hopeful that by that time, I am either going to school or in the work force. Got to polish that resume.

My brothers are going to have to stay at my aunt's place in Richmond, and they'll be starting to attend school on Monday. I really am positive that they will do good in that school, Pinole. I miss them. I miss all of them. I can't wait until we finally get a chance to be together once more. Hopefully mom will get a chance to talk to lolo and patch things up with him.

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Sacrifices are made not to last forever, but for a time. aw

Time doing nothing

yeah, i dont know how to manage my time well. been waking up at around 9am. and all i do is stay in the kitchen to keep things clean and the food hot. i tried to use the exercise equipment last monday, but my body really hurts up until now. so i just stay in the kitchen. evil food.

Got nothing to do but watch tv since jan.1st. good thing our uncle brought us to Stockton City yesterday to check out his boat. we haven't gone fishing for it was too cold. but we had a good time. we also signed up for a library card at Cooledge Library. Yeah, its cooledge. lol. The card that we had is good for all the public libraries here in Sacramento. I still am having a hard time with my sister, who has been pretty touchy for the last few days. Probably because she broke up with her boyfriend last new year's eve. Who knows if they really did broke up? I just overheard the breakup conversation on the morning of the 31st. Didn't stay too long for the details, butI'd rather have her be single and leave her boyfriend who is oceans away from us. Die boy die!!! ehem, if he were a boy, maybe he's a man now?

I'm glad to announce that my brothers passed an exam yesterday and hopefully they get admitted to school asap. take care my brothers! :) Be good boys, especially if you get live with our aunt at Richmond.


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New year, new life? death and rebirth

hi again! this is my first blog entry for 2010. weee~ wonder why? a certain somebody, *cough**cough*sorry, messed up the computer last week. well, thank you very much uncle for fixing it for us girls. we promise not to touch your pc downstairs to avoid both computers' corruption. bad start, but i am sure someone else is having an episode much worse than ours here at our aunt's place, like some relatives over at my grandma's house. don't worry mom, everything will be okay! :)

i've been itching to die, i mean dye, my hair since yesterday. it was one of my "first things to do" when i get here. since my mom told me that we shouldn't dye it back in the Philippines coz it may affect my visa,etc. so here i am, thinking of what hair color to choose. i found out that salon services are really pricey here. my gulay, i'd rather kill my own hair,rather than have them do it with the cost reaching the heavens and not achieving results that are good. (ah, hair is dead anyway. my point is, i don't want it to be double dead. lol. corny)

I asked myself last night if i really wanted to dye my hair. woke up, still unsure whether to dye it or not. this feeling of uncertainty and inability to arrive at a decision is basically because of my lack of knowledge about what color would be good for me. *rawr* i better have breakfast, maybe that would help me decide.

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