I PHAILLLEEEDDD!!!

Big time failure! Hahaha! That was the worse day ever. But then again, I'm glad that it was all over. I drew first blood!! Wooh... Darn that test! Darn me for being so confident to take the test that day.

I handed the resume (I had to staying up late for) last Wednesday and I was given the option to either take a test or not. It was a math test. Apparently the guy who owns that place prefers to have white people do the reading assistant thing primarily because of the way the whites deliver the language. There was another position available, so I decided to go ahead and apply for the math assistant position, (which I was so unprepared for). Then all of a sudden I was sitting in the class, taking a level Hworksheet worksh*t... I swear I heard my high school math teacher's voice inside my head while I was taking that test.

It was a tormenting thing. I stared blankly at the paper first. I thought I could do it and so it dragged on for 1 hour. And after another 3o minutes, I decided that it wasn't the job for me. I handed the paper to the head teacher and was not that concerned with the results. I knew I flunked the test and I am happy to say that I have satisfied with my curiosity with their school's discipline. I walked out their door...hungry... I never used my brain cells for a loooongg time now. My aunt told me to wait by Bel-air, a grocery place. I walked out at 4, they picked me up at 6pm. Talk about memorizing the details of the store. Hahaha

I'm done with the math thing, why bother? It really caught me unprepared. I was even haunted by that test that night in my dreams. I really hope that the person I am destined with knows a lot about math so I won't have difficulties.



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Gaga! Head's up! Gaga!

Hahaha... Tomorrow is a big day. :) I'll be submitting the application form. Weee... I just hope everything goes well. It is raining once more. Hope this weather won't affect my mood up to tomorrow and Thursday at least.

Nosebleed na naman ako siguro bukas... hahaha... got to get my confidence up!

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Body pain, school, and other activities

Lately I have been developing a habit of setting my alarm on for the following day just before going to bed only to wait for it to go on the following day and turning it off, then I go back to sleep. It really is bothering me, but today I did the exact same thing. Hope tomorrow I remember to change it, since I've been missing a lot of time with my extra sleeping hours.
I've decided to go back and do the exercise program again. I stopped the first time I did it because my body is in so much pain. The current body aches I receive reminded me of how intensive it can get, making my body really stick to the bed the following day. But if some can do the program, why can't I? Yeah, I really need to exercise real bad to level off the amount of food I ate when I got here.

Joni Jam Jelline
*Hahaha*

My aunt took us to see a community college last Thursday. We were able to accomplish quite a lot that day. We took the new students' orientation, able to schedule an appointment with a councilor this coming Thursday. I really hope that most of my subjects would be credited in order for me to finish my current course. Sayang naman kasi eh, 1 year na lang graduate na sana. The school is just known for 2-year courses, and if ever we get admitted maybe we'll be focusing more on the major subjects because we have already passed the minor subjects. Or they can just advice us to go to a different school that offers 4-yr programs. I don't know how their system goes, but these are just my speculations. Although just to be physically present in that school is nostalgic. I REALLY MISS SCHOOL.



Last Saturday, I was really nervous and shy to call the Kumon Center near our place. They are looking for part-time Reading assistants, Math assistants and receptionists. When I decided to call, I couldn't speak audibly enough for the other person to hear me. But I was still able to get some requirements for the job, like the person has to drive to at least 2 of the 3 learning centers per week. So after ending the embarrassing call, I decided to call my grandma and ask her advice. She laughed and encouraged me as I disclose to her what just happened. The call lasted for more than an hour with me ending up telling everyone who was present at their house that day what I just did. They boosted my confidence and made me decide to call the center again.

The second call was different than the first one. I had gained a lot of confidence that enabled me to deliver what I wanted to tell the person without stuttering. It was rewarding as well because luckily the girl told me that I can drop by the center right now to pick up an application form. I was so happy at that moment (imagine, kukuha pa lang ng application yan ah.what more kung hired na.hahaha.) and told her I'd swing by a little later. After that call, I went ahead and broke the news to everyone. I also found out that it wasn't necessary for me to have a driver's license, just as long as I can arrive at the centers on time.

Dressing up for the trip to the center took longer than picking the application form up. I was able to see the girl I phoned a little earlier about the job. She must have thought, Oh this was the girl who was stuttering. Hahaha. Well to me, she's not like the type to eat a person anyway. ^_^ I have to fill out the application form and submit it this Wednesday. Weee~ I hope I still have confidence. Still working on that confidence thing. Guess I should call my grandma again...

♥♥♥ Happy Valentines!!! ♥♥♥

Mood: In Pain...monthly mess
Song: According to You -Orianthi
Watching: the winter olympics @ Vancouver on tv

~Falling in love is like falling in make believe~


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Happy Hearts Day to everyone! ^_^

Recently I've been having a hard time thinking about what to write. There aren't any stories to tell, but I feel that there's a lot of things that I should be writing about. So here it goes...

Spring is just around the corner. Beautiful buds start to fill the trees along sidewalks. White, pink and yellow flowers decorate the dormant trees and grass. I wanted to pick one of the flowers, but I was warned that I might get caught if I go picking them in public places. Better if I pick some flowers on my uncle's garden. *stealth mode*. My uncle took us to this plant nursery to purchase some kind of fertilizer to kill the weeds. As it turns out, it's not enough to pick them weeds, because their seeds are in the soil. So basically, when summer or spring comes, they tend to destroy the plants. There were colorful flowers and you can really smell that the weather is about to change pretty soon. But it's supposed to be at least six more weeks of winter (from this year's Groundhog day, by the groundhog named Phil, prediction). Well, it doesn't matter. What caught my attention really in that plant nursery was this Citrus Chart. I saw this unusually unique citrus called Buddha's hand citron. I wonder how it tastes like.

Citrus medica var. sarcodactylus

Chocolates and Candy kept me wanting to explore the Japanese Marketplace, Oto's, which was near the nursery. We went to it shortly after purchasing the fertilizer thing to buy some dim sum wrappers. They are called potstickers, the siomai and the dumpling that is. I wonder if it's one and the same, or maybe its a matter of preparation/cooking that's why their names are different. Well, we had that for dinner. Made it with chicken instead of pork. I must confess, I am fond of using the food processor for grinding up food. I use it too much that my uncle started warning me about grinding up "good meat" pieces. Hahaha. But its most exciting. One press of a button and presto! Well, nothing beats chopping vegetables up. I do USE the food processor for chopping the onions. haha.

Peppero Almond
(image taken from the internet, working on getting own camera)

Asides from the dim sum wrappers (wonton/wanton whatever), my sister bought Peppero, a Korean version of Japan's Pocky. I like the one that's dipped with chocolate and almonds and so I used my older sister powers to get one box from her. Hahaha. I also found moving rubber!! ^_^ For a minute, my sister and I were like, OMG!!! Moving rubber! *faint* But I wasn't able to buy it coz it's 10$+ tax (plus, I am broke, no more money for me. Slowly, I found out that it was gone when I bought the wrappers).

Apolo Ohno

Today, it was a painful day... My monthly visitor has arrived. *dies* But I found new ♥. Updated my crush list as I was watching the Winter Olympics last night. My new crush is Apolo Ohno . Kyaaa~ Just thinking about him makes me want to... *faint* Well, actually, I am not really fond of him that much. Not like my other crushes that I would literally daydream about. I guess this is just one of those pupply-love crushes that I'll get over after a couple of days, at most week. (That is why, I only inscribed his name on my Crush Note using a pencil. Hahaha.)

My sister has been teasing me lately. She's telling me that I'm attracted to young boys. *dies* I can't help it. Well, it's not that I'm admitting that I am attracted to young boys, but well, there's something about them. You know, I define crush as someone (human or drawn character.lol) I am attracted with because of something that they have, not exactly making them my bf or someone to that effect. I know, I'm being defensive, that is why I'd rather look and adore anime/manga characters. They're always there when I need a visual inspiration unlike those big stars/people I don't even know. *sigh* I really want to draw something. This energy could be very useful to come up with something creative, but I can't I'm getting pretty sleepy.

Thank you for taking the time to read my random post.

♥♥♥Happy Valentine's Day and Happy Chinese New Year!!! Good Luck to all of us!!! ♥♥♥

Ang Everyday Question...

-Kusina Diary 1-

Anong ulam ngayon? My gulay, akala ko tapos na ang aking paghihirap sa pag-iisip ng ulam for the day, hindi pa pala. Hindi pa din nagbabago ang aking role na gampanin kahit nandito na kami sa ibang pamamahay. Napatunayan ko na naman na talagang habang buhay pa ang isang tao, kumakain pa ito. In short, isa ang pagkain sa kanyang maaaring problemahin sa araw-araw. Malas mo lang kung kagaya kita na talagang naka-poste na sa kusina upang gampanan ang mga trabaho na naroroon. Hanggang sa pagtulog ay hindi ka tatantanan ng tanong na iyan, swerte mo na lang kung paggising mo ay may solusyon ka na. Mahirap magmadali at mag-imbento ng kung anu-ano, lalo na kung time-pressured ka. Hahaha. Hindi ako pwedeng pang-Iron Chef. hahaha. Pero madalas, okay naman ang isprikitik na pagkain. Nauubos naman. Yung nga lang, nakakangarag isipin ang pagkain ng paulit-ulit. Tapos, pagnakapili ka na kung ano ang lulutuin, aba'y malalaman mong may kulang ka palang rekado. *dies*

At higit sa lahat, matapos mong pinag-isipan ng matagal, ihanda, iluto, at kung anu-ano pa, eh wala pang 5 minutese ay ubos na ang pagkain. Sarap talaga ng buhay. At least, may iniisip at niluluto pa ako, di ba?

-Panahon-

Wala lang talaga akong magawa sa kasalukuyan kundi magluto at magluto, kung may mailuluto na ha. At sigurado akong sa panahon na ako'y super busy na in the future, mami-miss ko ang mga panahong kagaya nito, kaya dapat lubus-lubusin na. Sobra na ata ito eh... Ayaw ko nang umabot sa panahon na ako'y maging tamad na para kumilos...

2 Months and counting...

Mood: Mixed emotions
Song of the moment: Love so sweet (piano ver.)

Days come by quite faster than I thought they'd be. In a few days time, another month would have passed since we came here. Like always, I tend to be slightly fearful of what lies ahead of us. Yesterday was our family's thanksgiving mass at St.John's, near our grandparent's home. I prayed and talked to God about our family's status here now. After the mass, I felt as if I was given an answer, that everything will be okay and that I should just hang on whatever is going to happen from that point on.

I want to talk about my mom's sister, who is a bit strict. My lola told me the other day that my aunt was having tampo on me. I didn't understand why she feels that way. I didn't even do anything wrong. The aunt I'm referring to here isn't the one that took us girls in, but the one who volunteered to take care of my brothers (let's just call her Aunt M, Aunt E is the one that we're living with now). So yesterday, we were at her house again. We were supposed to watch her son's game, but unfortunately their opponent's team were incomplete - thus letting them win by default. I made some attempts to converse with her, and fortunately she responded "normally".

Realization: Well, after yesterday, I came to understand Aunt M more. I have no idea who and what she was primarily because when she left, we were still young. And I know that she wants to catch up with us and know us better. She's kinder than I though she was, kinda reminds me of how my sister is like.

My head is hurting right now, its almost dinner and I haven't even prepared anything just yet.


Kambal, sa april na uwi ni tito ko. Hope I'll be able to give you money by that time para makabili ako nung ibang items na jan lang makikita. ^_^